An Inconvenient Sidekick

I manifest like a cycling wind of dust
hearing u speak a language that romances me
and isolates me all at once
.
Gone are the gestures you give when we are alone
kisses
embraces and words of devotion . you are good
.
I wuld have never guessed you for a player . or . could it be
you are ashamed of me? I cannot really know
because you translate what is in your interest to
.
I stand in the darkness of ignorance
why didn't I take Spanish like I meant to?
why can't I just trust that you're telling me everything?
.
If the gestures you grace me with were still there
kisses
embraces and words of devotion . maybe I culd
.
but there's a certain spot of intelligence within my brain
that infers and I believe it is correctly
that I am an inconvenient sidekick . and . that's not good enough